Sometimes I stand in front of my closet and feel paralyzed about what to wear.
That patch of carpet in front of my closet? It’s a battle ground. It's the stage for the expectations, limitations, judgments, and disappointments of all it means to be a woman, let alone a mom - showing up with all the changes of carrying and birthing children, or just being alive in a fallen world with gravity.
“That’s too tight. I’ve gained weight.”
“That’s too loud for me.”
“Those jeans are the best but they are starting to fall apart.”
“What would people think?”
“Why am I so pale?”
It’s noisy and draining and feels like slavery and it is not even 8am.
So I pause. And I spread the questions and accusations before Him in my heart. “Lord, what would abundance choose?” I ask. It comes from desperation and need in the face of all I fear, mainly people. It comes from a soul-deep knowing that He has called me into freedom, abundance, and contentment. So I want to live it. Every. Single. Day.
I’m acknowledging that this is hard. And I won’t look like I want to - or I used to. I will carry this extra weight and I will feel conspicuous when I don’t wear what is expected. And that’s ok. I can show up gently. Abundantly. Softly trusting the One that has set me free.
Often, the next outfit combination that comes to mind is what abundance would choose. So I wear it. But really, I am putting on the garments of praise because He’s the one that fights for me.
A gentle spirit shines, Momma. So for your closet battle today, what would abundance wear?
“For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery” (Galatians 5:1).